History and Govt

Does History actually exist. I mean we are aware of events that happened in our own life time, such as personal events and also events that happened to people close to us. But in general, is it all the truth? Is it what actually had happened? Are the images portraying a right fact in your books? Are all the description really accurate? Is all the real history is held by the Commission of Truth, or is is actually given to us. I do not think so. I mean the Government really controls the media and uses it too, but it also controls every aspect of your goddamn history. I started to realize that I do not believe History actually happened as it is written. Example. Lincoln did not really free all the slaves. The person that really started all this movement was DuBois a major person, and not only known as the first African American to obtain a PhD from Harvard. So yeah. It makes me realize so many thins. And the quote that says something like, The past is what makes the present, or the history is what makes the present. Well I think it says that, because since the Govt controlls the history, they expose it in a way, that we all want to see it, and in the way they like it. And of course this is what makes the present. We say that we use major leaders' forms of creating a hierarchy. Bullshit, you don't even know what methods they used. Tell me how then Egyptians had so many awesome and still undiscovered ways to built those pyramids. It is still unknown. And no body in the present will be able to construct one. It is impossible. I am thankful for that. People now a days, are not smarter. They are smarter in technology only, because this is basically what rules the world. If a person is not technical wise, doesn't mean they are dumb. In the past, they did not have cell phone, and any other electronics. And look what wonders of the world they have created. Anyways, so back to HISTORY. Hmm well i guess to really create a movie about past, only documentaries and gathering members, and reporters that have been part of a specific event. Everything is recorded and passed on.You cannot go back now and rip pages from the book and create a new history that happened 500 years ago. It is impossible. Yes you can go now in the 1980's chapter, and add a whole new history. Because it is recent, and there are millions of events that people are not aware if it. There was always always a war, and there is still war. Wars never ended. It doesn't matter if it was a civil way, world war or a genocide... so yeahh...... I have the government from the bottom of my heart. I hate the politics, and debates. They only can debate and care about money, and collect taxes, but do not do anything for the internal problems. All they care is spending billions on weapons to protect the country, cuz we wont have a country if we wont be protected. Well morons, don't go in other countries digging for a war, because this is what will cause attacks. Just stay inside and make your country and make a better country. Mind of your own business.

things change

It's so funny how people change. How some new people enter in your life, and become your friends, and some old friends since childhood become total strangers.
I do not appreciate also the fact that some people you find yourself spending a few time with them, even a little time every day, they assume a certain thing about you, they assume your personality, when in reality you actually do not know nothing about me. In High School, there was a person that always told me I was thing and that, assuming and telling things, even if it was in a form of a joke. It is so funny, because I hear it and I laugh and say no. but the person does not even believe it. Trust me, if you get into my shoes, you will so take everything back, and even apologize.. soo yeahh

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Huh..... I'm so freaking depressed ;-/