Update

Hola back. So I haven't been here in a while, and Im even wondering if people visit this site. But yeah, the truth is that, I don't even have time to write here stuff LOL
So what’s been going on in my life. Well, fall is actually great. Is November and Im loving the weather. In 60's every day, is fantastic. Yeah there are some rains here and there, but it doesn't bother me much. I just really hate that it gets dark around 5. I hate it. I barely have energy when I see getting dark so fat. I get off from work around that time and it makes me think that wooo, i been at work forever, feels like 8pm, instead of 5. I don’t even have energy, ehh I need the sun.
So I been having some financial troubles and Im am looking for a second job. I honestly don’t know how I will manage having to wjobs and school, and some other activities, but I should be fine. I am just worried about my schedule for next semester. My registration day is pretty late, and I’m scared that i wont be able to get the classes I need and want.. ehh.. hard life.
The Fiebre Latina Fashion Show that was on Oct 24, was great. It was a nice show, and being the first time presented by the Latino Society of Baruch College, it did a great job. Course, the reviews in the Tickers newspaper bashed the show completely, and did not give credit that it was the first show put up by the LS and it didn’t have a big budget. Oh well, next year it will be great. I am not going to be part of the models, (i don’t know, maybe). But i want to say that for one of the scenes, I will present my design collection. I’m working on sketches now, and sure over the spring and summer will be creating them. I’m really excited and looking forward for the next year Fashion Show.
Hmm, by the way, about a month ago, I pierced my nose. Yeah it was very random and exciting. I thought it was going to be very painful, but it hurt a pinch. I enjoyed it. Now i got a new diamond stone, and i love it =) (my mom rocks!)

Boom............. exciting for winter vacations. Will plan some interesting things to do =)

love poems???

So.. I don't really like writing love poems, but here are my two best so far.. written a WHILLLLLEE ago lol


Looking for love

When the sky above you is dark blue

You feel like falling in a box

Sinking in an endless bottom without any clue.

A cascade full of pain crushes your soul

Laying at the bottom

Of a deep dark hole.

Hopeless you ask for a hand from above

A sun to laminate your path

A fragile soul that needs some love.

Fearing love

Something screams inside me

Questioning where would we be.

I feel like it’s a waste to write

But at least I’m expressing the pain inside

Thinking about you makes me weak

I want to get inside and take a peak.

When it rains I think about you

Fingers are shivering without any clue.

I want to hold your hands tight

And this pain I want to fight.

Maybe we will never make it together

Because we are always in a stormy weather

Sometimes I want to tear

But I am always full of fear.

I miss my family

I miss my family.

Sad, but I live now only with my mom and dad. Yes my grandma, relatives and cousins are in Europe. And is even sadder that not all of them are in Moldova. Some left to live in Madrid, some in Portugal, some in Italy. They are like spread all over.
Since I moved here, I missed two weddings of my two closet girl cousins of all. It makes me so sad that I can cry right now. They were like sisters for me, and now one of them will have a baby by this November, which is so cute. I am so happy for her. (btw, I think both of them are like 26) Thank god I have another girl cousin that didn’t get married, yet. Hope not. I can’t miss her wedding. LOL Well she is my age so I know she won’t do any wedding any time soon. Well at least that’s what I believe. In Europe they will consider a girl old if she is nor married by the age of 25. I think it is ridiculous. 25 is still young to get married lol. WOW.. I am so never going back there. LOL I know even at this age of 20 I will be made fun on. Some of my cousins at the age of 21 got married, and look at me, I don’t even have a boyfriend. I can care less. I love my life. I am doing all the things I want to do, and taking it slow. Thanks god I have two older brothers left in Moldova, and they didn’t get married. Yayy I miss them!
It may sound strange but I think is so cute when my friend that is 20 is dating a guy and he is 32. They had been a couple for over 4 years now. I look up to them. She is an awesome human being, and he is also a very nice guy. I met him only once, and I hope to know him better. I adore them. Another couple I know, the girl is 21 and he is 30. They so adorable together. I think I even have millions of pics with them together. Sorry Angie, but I am not stalking you guys. lol I think this is a perfect combination, is a balance, cuz all the younger guys are so immature, and is true. Uhh :-P
So, back to family. Today I had a moment. I almost started crying at work. I miss my only grandma that I have left; she was like a mom to me. She basically was the one that took care of me, when my parents were always away. Then I miss my cousin that is a sister to me. She is only 7 months older than me, and is so funny that when we were younger we used to fight all the time, now we miss each other the most.
Hahah I miss the gathering around with family and have dinner. I miss the free time my parents had and we used to visit our relatives, like my dad’s brothers. I miss spending holidays with the whole family usually in the country side. I miss going camping, going to the mountains, etc, etc. And course, I do miss my childhood friends. I still keep contact with some of them, but a few. Those are the people I knew them since I was 6, and with some of them I went to school with them till I moved here.
Oh, I would so go back to visit all of them. But I would not move back to live there.

Summer 08

So yeah.
Summer passed so fast, and I am back to college in a week or so. I don’t even want to think about it. My schedule is hectic. Mondays and Wednesdays I will be getting out at 7:20pm, and then Tues and Thur I start at 7:50am. I will be dead. Thank god I have Fridays off from college, but then I work all day :-(

I am very mad that I took a summer course, which I ended up failing. Sucks ass!!!!! I am a loser for wasting one month going to school in the summer, and wasted money for my class. I could had bought myself a new laptop aaaaaaaa Mad!!!!!!!
But anyways, leaving the frustration behind. I loved this summer at the end. I went to South Beach with my best friend. It was awesome. 10 days was wonderful. Our hotel was 1 block away from the beach and like 20 min away from the night life, Lincoln road, shopping and dinning. Not bad. The weather in Miami is crazy. One minute is sunny and the next is raining. But I loved it. For a few days it was showering but then our last 5 days was awesome. Sunny!!! I felt like I was outside US, which I loved that. I was hearing Spanish everywhere I was walking, Italian, French and much more. I know I hear a lot of mix of languages in NY, but Florida had a different atmosphere. People were so nice and kind. We met so many people and became good friends, that I have a whole contact list from Miami. Next time I am going on vacation there, I will only purchase the air line tickets, no hotel. I can just stay at their houses. LOL Great!
The highlight of the whole vacation was the parasailing. It was awesome. So much adrenaline before I went in the air. It was crazy. Then me and crazy Kat decided to rent mini go cars, but they were actually mini scoters. None of us had a license, but the guy let us drive even with a permit. Yeah it was insane driving around the city streets. Obvious, I almost crashed two times. I love speed, but that little car was going 40 miles an hour. LOL soo little. But it was funny. I could not stop laughing.
I went out every night, and I can even tell what the best places to go are. Mango Caffe was great. All the Latin life is there. Great music, live dancers, men and women, all ages and good food too. Tantra club was very nice. You can dine there, and at night is a nice mini club with great music and live music too. Mansion is a great club. Loved the selection of dance music. On Wednesday there was a Brazilian Swim Suit Fashion show, and on Friday night, DJ AM was there. He was great. I loved him, and especially his entrance, intro. LOL. Prive is a good club, good music and spacious. Opium was a pretty, with an outside dance floor which was cool. But I think is way too hot in the summer. But it liked it. Nikki Club probably is overrated. They say the best nights are on Sunday. Yes it is always packed. Very pricy at the Nikki Beach or Club. I loved the atmosphere LOL Cameo was a good club, almost like Mansion. hmmm…. What else? Blue Martini was a nice bar, and they do have live music like Jazz and Rock. The best places to eat that I been so far was Rosalina, a great Italian restaurant, Nexxt which was awesome. Their portions were huge. Sushi Samba… delicious, Abokado… good but expensive lol.. hmm and there are many more on Lincoln Road…. It looked almost like I was back in Europe. Sweet vacation. Wow. I can’t believe I talked so much about Florida. But hey it was great. And this is not all. LOL I really want to go back. =) ahhhh memories!!
Soo then I came back to NYC for two weeks, and then hopped to Atlantic City with my three good friends LOL. It was a good weekend getaway. We got there on a Thursday night, which was so bad. I was disappointed in AC. We went to Taj Mahal and the club Casbah was closed on Thursday. We then went to Borgota to Mixx and Mur Mur and it was also closed. The only night club that was open was Providence, which was okay. OMG I can’t believe all the time I was there, I had no good dance from anyone. Can anybody dance???????????? Ohh and the funniest part… a Mr Grandpa was there hhah he was hilarious. LOL The net day was better. Went to the beach for a bit ahhh
Oh, so during the day me and Precious decided to go do some shopping, to get soda, water and some snacks. So we end up at this small grocery store. It was funny. A random guy was like “Yummm Chocolate and Vanilla” hahahaha that cracked me up. LOL.
So, I took Precious to see the sexy boys from Thunder from Down Under. She loved it. Heheheh yes I did too…. It wasn’t as exciting as the first time seeing them. But still good hhahahahah ;-) Oh , then later that night was crazy. We went to Mixx, Mur Mur which was the best, then Casbah… ohh I didn’t like it at all. And then I think me and Kat stopped by some club above House of Blues at our hotel. I forgot the name, but there were no people. Was it because it was passed 3am or was it because it was bad. Anyways… so we left to our hotel pretty soon… Next day was a very long day. So much traffic going back home, it took us a while, over 5 hours. So all this time I was thinking that finally I can go home and relax, felt very exhausted. But no, once I got home, I had to clean my apartment because it had one inch of dust from the construction, it was horrible. I felt like moving out to a hotel till they fix it all. Thank god my dad came to help. So when I thought that nothing can go bad anymore, I was wrong. There was a huge argument in the family, which crushed me, felt asleep like 4am. Next day was bad too. When I came home from gym, I had wet flip flops because it was raining out, so I fell down the stairs soo bad, that I cut my knee till my bone. I could not walk for a good time…. I was very scared that the disk above my knee may be cracked…..but I was fine late. Well at least someone made my day. One sweet message and I was happier. I honestly did not even think that person will respond back heheh. Later I felt bad for leaving AC too soon heheh =)
Soo yeah………… omg I write too much. But sometimes I get into blogging a lot. My summer went fast, but at least I got do to all I planned, and I am glad.
My apartment is finally getting in order which makes me extremely happy. I’ve been living in a mess and in boxes since May.. ahh =(. In a few weeks I will be leaving to DC for my friend’s b-day. I am very excited actually. A good weekend getaway before college starts again. Ahhh…
Since this summer went good as I planned. I have good plans for this fall and winter. I’m deff going to Vegas for Thanksgiving, and in January prob going to Mountain Vermont for snowboarding. I really miss it. Well… if I get what I need soon before New Years or even before spring, I may go visit my aunt in Spain in April…. Keeping my fingers crossed LOL

fair colleges?

So, read the article

http://finance.yahoo.com/college-education/article/105175/The-Billionaire-Universities

Why our society labels these Universities, like Harvard, Stanford, Columbia, NYC, and many more, which are Ivy League colleges as being the best in the country. Fine, let them be the best, because of their reputation, highly classified professors, and because of their extremely high tuition. Despite all these, it doesn’t mean that colleges across the state are any worst. When these graduate students seek for a job and they have a Harvard diploma, of course they will get the job. And why? Because of the damn label. A person from a city college having the same diploma, same GPA, and curriculum, will be less likely to get the job, compared to the Harvard graduate student. It aggravates me so much. I bet that students from any college can become a millionaire or even billionaire. They just have to accomplish. And why also a Harvard student becomes a billionaire. Isn’t it obvious his family is already wealthy, just because he attended Harvard? So many students apply into Harvard, but so little get it. Course the administration looks at the student’s income, so they accept him because they wealthy or rich. Duh!
And why that is the gov’t will only help the big Universities and not the small one. Yes, they look at the accomplishments, but don’t you think that is a minor school will receive more help, they may improve. It is exactly the same when the gov’t will help more a city than a small town.
I think it is completely not fair.

Mean people

Oh... how much I hate the New York subways..... so many people just stare at you. I don't understand... what's so interesting that they are looking at. I understand a glance and thats it. But when a a dumb guy, ugly, and ahhhhh not to be racist, but short Mexicans... so they stare like that have never seen a lady in their life... It pisses me off. I know Spanish, and I get everything they say. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Another thing. I sent a form for Time Warner Cable a few weeks ago, for the management superintendent office to get a new account. Oh gosh, I waited weeks. If i wouldn't had called today, god knows when the bitch would had processed the information. While I was on the phone she processed it for me. God damn, and this Friday they will finally install it. aaaa.... that made me so mad.
I still did not get the new stair case installed. My room is a wreck. I still have clothes in boxes, which is a disaster..... I AM MORE MAD.
soo.. I was getting out of the subway through the turning long bars, like a door. A man was standing there, an MTA employee. I pushed the metal bars, and it didn't work. Duh obvious it was closed. And the man behind it was just looking at me. Like he could not tell me it is not working. I was a few feet away from him, and it is only one exit, course I am going to go through there, goddamn it!!! Not only I bumped into the exit, but I had people behind me... gosh, what a moron.
I totally hate the new person that took over my desk, so now I have to work in the back on the working table on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays, cuz of him. Ah he is such a moron. I left my keys on the desk on Friday. So then I came back to get my keys, but since the office closed earlier because of the holiday, everyone left, besides him. I was lucky to see him behind the glass door so i called him to open the door for me. He gave me an attitude why i called him. Excuse me, I said... I forgot my keys. And he kept asking me, then wouldn't i be able to come in without them. YES MORON, that's why i came to get my keys back!!! jeeee

I had a really bad day..... and not to mention the weather. Humid and raining. Plus I need to run after work to shop for new gym clothes and them go to the gym... aaaaaa!!!!!

I need a relaxing time. I start summer classes next Monday. So soon, I have only this week to rest. Thats not enough. But the month will pass fast, so then I will have one month and a half vacation, before fall semester LOL

Why the guitars cry?

Why the guitars cry?

Do you know why the guitars cry?
Their memories have been hurt
You, love tell them
That what happened is not lost.

Why the guitars cry
Only the birds know
The bitter chords
What did they lose?

On the streets only love floats in the air
The nights are bitter without him
He's asking, asking for someone else
My guitar is crying…

Why the guitars cry
When the sun is rising
The birds are singing
About my pain

A Perfect sTRANGER

A perfect stranger

A perfect stranger is who you are.
A simple name is what I know,
But I feel like I want to cross the bar.

You got me from the beginning,
With a tender look and a sweet smile,
And I don't even know what I am feeling.

To reply back the time is not what I want,
What happened, happened and I have to move on,
But a love seed I want to plant.

As they say that age does not matter,
Love does not have a limit,
So then lift me off the ground
Fly with speed,
And make our love more profound.

Where are you?

Where are you?

Where are you?
In my dreams I look for you.
Where are you?
You fallow me in my sleep.
But, where are you?


I look for you in my dreams
So I can tell you how much I want
For you to look at me with your soul
And answer me with your heart.

I want you here next to me
So I can always comfort you
I fly only with one wing without you
I am always looking for you.

Where are you my love?
Where can I find you?
My broken heart is burning
When your tender eyes are not speaking

Where are you?
In my dreams I look for you.
Where are you?
You fallow me in my sleep.
But, where are you?

on the rainy days

I don't know if people in New York City noticed something what I did. The city should have recycling umbrellas. I am serious, LOL. Even though it does not rain so often in the city, but when it rains the winds are crazy, and let me tell you something, the umbrellas are shitty. Every time after a rain, you walk on the streets and I swear next to a garbage can which is located on the corner of every street, you will see an umbrella in it. One time I saw four, one next to each other. The umbrella companies should start making better and durable umbrellas, and at the same time more comfortable. A good umbrella is like huge, and com on, a New Yorker does not like to carry a umbrella that is big. I just though this was a pretty funny interesting thing I noticed.

Recycling Umbrellas New York!

recap

Ohh goshh. please disregard the Random post i posted a while ago... total bullshit. That boy was not for me... ohh I dont feel like writing, cuz I know I may write an entire post about the relationship, but I decide to skip it.
I am a person that gets over somebody fast, i never had strong attached feelings towards somebody. I dont even know what is wrong with me, but i realized that is not me... is the other one. I dunno when and where I will find the right one... I will live the liva loca till then.
Dios mios when i look back at old blogs, I want to kill myself.
Anyways.... i was really foolish.. god damn... i must wrote about my every single move.
I grew up a lot in the past 1 year. I have experience s much.. more than enyone could had experiences. I am going to get back to my writing.. maybe name the new grown up life.. So much different, so more spontaneous, adventurous, and wise.
Catch up with you later.
I am at work.. i wasnt supposed to be here LOL
xoxo