Dedicated to my sister!

Dedicated to my sister
I write whole this from my soul. I am not sure if you care or not, but this is especially for my sister. I came from school, missing you and wanted to see you. When I was dialing your number, I felt that something is wrong, and when you pick up the phone from one tone of your voice I realized you were crying. Everything went dark, and feeling blue. The day before you told me what you did. And when I called you, you were all crying. For the first time I heard you crying that hard. I knew how much you were hurt, and what happened I knew all. I felt like dropping everything and go to you and hug you and be with you. Why I am not that close to you now? Why? I wish I had the power and turn the time back, or to do everything to skip that moment, to make you feel better and be with you. You became a very very special person for me ,and you got in my soul. I care a lot about you, and I felt bad too. When you feel bad, I do too. When you are crying, I start crying too. When the world fades for you, it does for me. But don’t worry sister, because on the bad times and on the good, I will always be there for you. This is just this feeling that I cannot explain how much you mean for me. The distance does not matter, because there is no one who will take your place. You are the one, you are my sister. ….. You could not stop for crying, you know it was your fault, but that happened because of hatred, and you know this perfectly. I felt your pain, and that pain got into me. This is not a freaking poem I am just saying everything I felt. .. so I went and took a shower. Under the water fallowing on me, it felt hard, and my mind was at you. I was worried ad hell. Tears came through my eyes, but those was for you. For my love to you. I could not stop thinking about it, I was sad, my mind went down, my smile faded away and the atmosphere around me was useless. Next day at school in the morning I wanted to call you, but it was too early. I still was thinking about you. At school, I came and asked for a cell to call you, because I thought it was a good time. But when I got into my French class, I asked my teacher and she let me call from school. You cell was closed, I left you a message but I was worried. I haven’t heard form you. All day I wasn’t in my place, I was still worried and in same time concentrate at the work in school. I came home and called you. You cell was turned off. I called your home you were sleeping. I am worried. Kate, this what happened to you, it not only affected you but me too. No matter what happened I am there for you. I am looking in the mirror, and I wish I could see me somewhere else spending time with and have fun how we used to.
There are some feeling that you cannot express. You will realize this at moment how hard it is and how much you care about one person, and trough what you go. But I hope that this message helped you and you will always know I am there for you, maybe not in person but in your mind and in you. I am there.
Love you Kate very very very much. You are the most beautiful, I care about you! L O V E from the bottom of my soul.
Miss you!

Stella!