Uncesored truth about parents

For the past 3 years i really got the chance to have a close relation ship with my parents. In these years i have discovered about them so many interesting thngs and really demonstarted that i associate with them; from where i got my talents or the things i love. Why i said in the past three years is because this is whne i came to America (for the second time), When was young my parents would not treat me as an adult or discuse stuff with me, or even hang out with me. Yes we did hang out or have family walks. I remember one day in my country which was the best day ever with my parents. Me, my mom and dad went to The Wax Museum then we hanged around in Park, then we went and had dinner then at night went to the movies. From what i remember that was the BEST DAY EVER of my life with my parents, I probbaly was like about 13 or 14. It was awesome because i never went out like that with my parents. My dad always worked; in so many jobs and stuff that i didnt know till i found out in the present time. My mom the same. Sometimes i bearly saw my father, he never went to a parent's meeting at school, only my mom did. I hanged out with friend, cousins or my grandma. She is my only grandma, and i love her very much. no grandpas n no other grandma's, they all dead, and i never got the chance to meet them. My dad was very stubborn and did stuff i never knew. Probbaly my dad wouldnt even be alive by now, since he got involve with some mafia looong time ago. My mom todl me like a few months ago. My mom was the one that saved him and payed to those people, to who and how and why i dont know and i dint really want to know. It was in the past and i know my dad does not have any problems like that anymore.
One time for a project i had to ask my parents some questions, n wow how much didnI find out about their childhood, and the things they liked, which i do now too. My mom when she was a teenage she wanted to become a stewardese, heheh that was funny, probably thats why it relates why i like to travel, not only be though, but my whole family. My mom was alays in to fashion andwill always think about something that nobody has, and she always draw figures. This fact demonstartes why i am passionate about fashion and designing. My dad whne he was a teenage he wanted to become a sculptor, making sculptured from wood, this demonstartes why i am interested and i am good at art. and there are many stuff also in between. WOW what amazing is this for me, but it seems kinda weird. Maybe not all the families are s perfect as u see them in movies on TV. A complete Propaganda! Or maybe there are.
Since i came here i became so close with my mom, maybe because we are closr here, or maybe because i grew up and learned to be independent. But you dont even iamgine how much i needed my parents back there, when i didnt even realized at all. Honestly i bet that my dad doesnt even know that i took dances classes when he wanted me so much to take them. But i chose the aerobic hip hop dances. I had a competition in the city and we won the first place. I bet he doesnt even remember this. My mom proabbaly does, but she wanst there to see me. My grandma and my close cousin were there to watch me. MY cousin is the closest couzin i evenr had. She is 7 months oler than me, and i love her so much that we payed all her trip and acomodations to come this Summer to New York. That probbaly was the best gift for her.
My parents .. hmmmm i have to admit that they werere fighting and arguing a lot.. I am traumated by this since i was maybe 6 years old from what i remember. Sometimes i would get this strong headaches because i cried a lot. Those days are the worst days of my life. I feel like bursting into tears now. I never actaually said this to anybody, but somestimes it feels better if you get it out of your soul.
No matter how my relationship with my parent was and how it is, i will always love them no matter what. I cant be mad at them foreverwhen for example they dont let me go to some place i wanted and many other stuff. They still are my parents that raised me. I respect them from the bottom of my heart and i would never want to let them down, because i would feel the most humiliated person on earth!
Love you!! and hope everything goes good for out future!