love poems???

So.. I don't really like writing love poems, but here are my two best so far.. written a WHILLLLLEE ago lol


Looking for love

When the sky above you is dark blue

You feel like falling in a box

Sinking in an endless bottom without any clue.

A cascade full of pain crushes your soul

Laying at the bottom

Of a deep dark hole.

Hopeless you ask for a hand from above

A sun to laminate your path

A fragile soul that needs some love.

Fearing love

Something screams inside me

Questioning where would we be.

I feel like it’s a waste to write

But at least I’m expressing the pain inside

Thinking about you makes me weak

I want to get inside and take a peak.

When it rains I think about you

Fingers are shivering without any clue.

I want to hold your hands tight

And this pain I want to fight.

Maybe we will never make it together

Because we are always in a stormy weather

Sometimes I want to tear

But I am always full of fear.

I miss my family

I miss my family.

Sad, but I live now only with my mom and dad. Yes my grandma, relatives and cousins are in Europe. And is even sadder that not all of them are in Moldova. Some left to live in Madrid, some in Portugal, some in Italy. They are like spread all over.
Since I moved here, I missed two weddings of my two closet girl cousins of all. It makes me so sad that I can cry right now. They were like sisters for me, and now one of them will have a baby by this November, which is so cute. I am so happy for her. (btw, I think both of them are like 26) Thank god I have another girl cousin that didn’t get married, yet. Hope not. I can’t miss her wedding. LOL Well she is my age so I know she won’t do any wedding any time soon. Well at least that’s what I believe. In Europe they will consider a girl old if she is nor married by the age of 25. I think it is ridiculous. 25 is still young to get married lol. WOW.. I am so never going back there. LOL I know even at this age of 20 I will be made fun on. Some of my cousins at the age of 21 got married, and look at me, I don’t even have a boyfriend. I can care less. I love my life. I am doing all the things I want to do, and taking it slow. Thanks god I have two older brothers left in Moldova, and they didn’t get married. Yayy I miss them!
It may sound strange but I think is so cute when my friend that is 20 is dating a guy and he is 32. They had been a couple for over 4 years now. I look up to them. She is an awesome human being, and he is also a very nice guy. I met him only once, and I hope to know him better. I adore them. Another couple I know, the girl is 21 and he is 30. They so adorable together. I think I even have millions of pics with them together. Sorry Angie, but I am not stalking you guys. lol I think this is a perfect combination, is a balance, cuz all the younger guys are so immature, and is true. Uhh :-P
So, back to family. Today I had a moment. I almost started crying at work. I miss my only grandma that I have left; she was like a mom to me. She basically was the one that took care of me, when my parents were always away. Then I miss my cousin that is a sister to me. She is only 7 months older than me, and is so funny that when we were younger we used to fight all the time, now we miss each other the most.
Hahah I miss the gathering around with family and have dinner. I miss the free time my parents had and we used to visit our relatives, like my dad’s brothers. I miss spending holidays with the whole family usually in the country side. I miss going camping, going to the mountains, etc, etc. And course, I do miss my childhood friends. I still keep contact with some of them, but a few. Those are the people I knew them since I was 6, and with some of them I went to school with them till I moved here.
Oh, I would so go back to visit all of them. But I would not move back to live there.

Summer 08

So yeah.
Summer passed so fast, and I am back to college in a week or so. I don’t even want to think about it. My schedule is hectic. Mondays and Wednesdays I will be getting out at 7:20pm, and then Tues and Thur I start at 7:50am. I will be dead. Thank god I have Fridays off from college, but then I work all day :-(

I am very mad that I took a summer course, which I ended up failing. Sucks ass!!!!! I am a loser for wasting one month going to school in the summer, and wasted money for my class. I could had bought myself a new laptop aaaaaaaa Mad!!!!!!!
But anyways, leaving the frustration behind. I loved this summer at the end. I went to South Beach with my best friend. It was awesome. 10 days was wonderful. Our hotel was 1 block away from the beach and like 20 min away from the night life, Lincoln road, shopping and dinning. Not bad. The weather in Miami is crazy. One minute is sunny and the next is raining. But I loved it. For a few days it was showering but then our last 5 days was awesome. Sunny!!! I felt like I was outside US, which I loved that. I was hearing Spanish everywhere I was walking, Italian, French and much more. I know I hear a lot of mix of languages in NY, but Florida had a different atmosphere. People were so nice and kind. We met so many people and became good friends, that I have a whole contact list from Miami. Next time I am going on vacation there, I will only purchase the air line tickets, no hotel. I can just stay at their houses. LOL Great!
The highlight of the whole vacation was the parasailing. It was awesome. So much adrenaline before I went in the air. It was crazy. Then me and crazy Kat decided to rent mini go cars, but they were actually mini scoters. None of us had a license, but the guy let us drive even with a permit. Yeah it was insane driving around the city streets. Obvious, I almost crashed two times. I love speed, but that little car was going 40 miles an hour. LOL soo little. But it was funny. I could not stop laughing.
I went out every night, and I can even tell what the best places to go are. Mango Caffe was great. All the Latin life is there. Great music, live dancers, men and women, all ages and good food too. Tantra club was very nice. You can dine there, and at night is a nice mini club with great music and live music too. Mansion is a great club. Loved the selection of dance music. On Wednesday there was a Brazilian Swim Suit Fashion show, and on Friday night, DJ AM was there. He was great. I loved him, and especially his entrance, intro. LOL. Prive is a good club, good music and spacious. Opium was a pretty, with an outside dance floor which was cool. But I think is way too hot in the summer. But it liked it. Nikki Club probably is overrated. They say the best nights are on Sunday. Yes it is always packed. Very pricy at the Nikki Beach or Club. I loved the atmosphere LOL Cameo was a good club, almost like Mansion. hmmm…. What else? Blue Martini was a nice bar, and they do have live music like Jazz and Rock. The best places to eat that I been so far was Rosalina, a great Italian restaurant, Nexxt which was awesome. Their portions were huge. Sushi Samba… delicious, Abokado… good but expensive lol.. hmm and there are many more on Lincoln Road…. It looked almost like I was back in Europe. Sweet vacation. Wow. I can’t believe I talked so much about Florida. But hey it was great. And this is not all. LOL I really want to go back. =) ahhhh memories!!
Soo then I came back to NYC for two weeks, and then hopped to Atlantic City with my three good friends LOL. It was a good weekend getaway. We got there on a Thursday night, which was so bad. I was disappointed in AC. We went to Taj Mahal and the club Casbah was closed on Thursday. We then went to Borgota to Mixx and Mur Mur and it was also closed. The only night club that was open was Providence, which was okay. OMG I can’t believe all the time I was there, I had no good dance from anyone. Can anybody dance???????????? Ohh and the funniest part… a Mr Grandpa was there hhah he was hilarious. LOL The net day was better. Went to the beach for a bit ahhh
Oh, so during the day me and Precious decided to go do some shopping, to get soda, water and some snacks. So we end up at this small grocery store. It was funny. A random guy was like “Yummm Chocolate and Vanilla” hahahaha that cracked me up. LOL.
So, I took Precious to see the sexy boys from Thunder from Down Under. She loved it. Heheheh yes I did too…. It wasn’t as exciting as the first time seeing them. But still good hhahahahah ;-) Oh , then later that night was crazy. We went to Mixx, Mur Mur which was the best, then Casbah… ohh I didn’t like it at all. And then I think me and Kat stopped by some club above House of Blues at our hotel. I forgot the name, but there were no people. Was it because it was passed 3am or was it because it was bad. Anyways… so we left to our hotel pretty soon… Next day was a very long day. So much traffic going back home, it took us a while, over 5 hours. So all this time I was thinking that finally I can go home and relax, felt very exhausted. But no, once I got home, I had to clean my apartment because it had one inch of dust from the construction, it was horrible. I felt like moving out to a hotel till they fix it all. Thank god my dad came to help. So when I thought that nothing can go bad anymore, I was wrong. There was a huge argument in the family, which crushed me, felt asleep like 4am. Next day was bad too. When I came home from gym, I had wet flip flops because it was raining out, so I fell down the stairs soo bad, that I cut my knee till my bone. I could not walk for a good time…. I was very scared that the disk above my knee may be cracked…..but I was fine late. Well at least someone made my day. One sweet message and I was happier. I honestly did not even think that person will respond back heheh. Later I felt bad for leaving AC too soon heheh =)
Soo yeah………… omg I write too much. But sometimes I get into blogging a lot. My summer went fast, but at least I got do to all I planned, and I am glad.
My apartment is finally getting in order which makes me extremely happy. I’ve been living in a mess and in boxes since May.. ahh =(. In a few weeks I will be leaving to DC for my friend’s b-day. I am very excited actually. A good weekend getaway before college starts again. Ahhh…
Since this summer went good as I planned. I have good plans for this fall and winter. I’m deff going to Vegas for Thanksgiving, and in January prob going to Mountain Vermont for snowboarding. I really miss it. Well… if I get what I need soon before New Years or even before spring, I may go visit my aunt in Spain in April…. Keeping my fingers crossed LOL